I don't know

8 October 2017,

That's the first time I met someone yang sampai sekarang I cant get rid him off my mind. He's the one yang started the conversation by smiling at me, approach me and talk to me. I don't know how that simple 'hai kak' (I'm not sure how old is he but ...nvm) can change everything from A to Z. After that incident, I can't stop thinking about how adorable he is calling me kak and that adorable smile, I won't ever forget.

Day by day passed and tomorrow is my first monthsary (?) in....well that's the major problem of me. I know what's the meaning of crush, like and love but I can't decide what's my feeling towards him. Is it just a crush ? Or do I like him ? That's what I've been wondering this whole time.

But all I know is every time he's around, I suddenly feel excited and every time we make eye contact, I'm the one who blushed a lot. But I can't identify what feelings appear that time. I know he noticed it but there's nothing he can do. I'm the one who fan-girl him, not him fanboying over me (EVEN tho sometimes I hope he would feel the same way about me)

Talk about him, I still does not know what is his damn real name. All I know is I called him "Iskandar" "Chipsmore" as he always gone and appear out of blue..I don't know his age, where he came from, what course is he in, what type of person he is but I know his friendssssss (YASSS)

Enough about it today. Let's just hope I can confirmed my feelings before I make a wise decision to confess to him. Goody nighty everyone !