STUCK (?)

What a life !

I've always want to have a normal life. And when I said normal, there's no distraction or problem that isn't really related with me. To be honest, I'm extremely tired-exhausted of everything. Of unvoted dramas that happened around me.

Relationship ? Even worse. One-Sided crush is complicated. I used to crush on him, like a lot but he, in the end gave me a damn fake hope when he's finally has a girlfriend. I mean, I don't know but I saw a girl on his Ig story (Which I confirmed is her girlfriend)

But now, I decided not to care. Control myself from crushing or liking someone. And never fall in love until I'm mature enough to feel it. Love isn't something you can turn on and off. It's permanent until it's faded by itself. And the hardest part of it- moving on.

Damn.

And let's proceed to friendship. Yes. I've a friends that I don't even titled em as my friends.I mean, I'm not someone who's giving the 'friend' title easily. I don't trust anyone. I've a various type of thoughts when I'm with someone- that they called friend(s)

Well, their friendship is kinda ruined because of a boy. I told you ; Just because a GUY. A damn not-so-good looking guy. I don't know whom story to trust because I felt like both of the story were twisted somehow. But still, i don't get it why they have to fought over a guy.

I missed the old situation (of me) where I've no damn problems at all. Being alone whereever I am, writing stories and singing without caring of others' problem. Nah. That's all for today (I guess ?)

Adios !